I’m sat on my bed with a tub of ice cream. It’s 6:24pm. It’s been a wonderfully sunny day and now, as the evening draws in, the sky is looking all sorts of dreamy. Now seems like a good a time as any to write up this post.
Good title, right? It’s quite fitting, maybe I should consider renaming my blog. Anyway, today is the first day I’ve logged onto my WordPress account for what feels like forever. I’m logged in on my phone, but I hardly ever use the app. I like the feeling of typing with a keyboard. I always ramble, like, always. I’m being genuinely serious when I say I’m literally typing my thoughts right now. No fancy wording, just the words in my head. Sorry, back to the story. So the last time I posted on this blog/website thingy was in September 2016. A whole six months ago! The post was about freshers week, which is funny to think about because in just over two months I will have completed my second year at medical school (providing I don’t have to resit my summer exams – everyone, let’s make a prayer circle). Believe me when I say I was meant to write up a whole spectrum of posts. A lot has happened this academic year and because I like to ramble oh so very much, I am going to tell you everything 🙂 Thank you in advance for taking the time out to read and apologies for the time you won’t get back. ❤
First things first, last semester was the hardest yet. It was the ‘mind and movement’ unit, full of hard-to-pronouce Latin words and complex brain… stuff. Honestly, whoever devised the content for that unit must have gone through a terrible break-up at the time or something because they really did not hold back. It’s as if they chanelled all their anger into that semester. The anatomy of the brain is truly mind-blowing. See what I did there? We learned about schizophrenia, parkinsons, multiple sclerosis, stroke and a whole load of other neurological conditions. The content was actually very interesting but usually it’s the interesting things that are the most complicated to understand. The brain is crazy. I can’t even count the number of times I wanted to bang my head against the wall. In fact, I think I probably did. Looking back, I’m not too sure how I made it through that semester but hey, I made it! I passed my January exams so no semester 3 resit for me! *wipes sweat*
What else happened?
Oh yeah, my OSCE. Every year we have an exam called an OSCE – I would tell you what it stands for but I actually can’t remember off the top of my head. Objective structured something exam? I literally googled it just now and it stands for ‘Objective Structured Clinical Examination’, so I was kinda close. The OSCE tests our practical skills, things like taking blood pressure, communication skills, neurological examinations etc., and we have ten stations in each exam. They gave us four stations in January so in May we’ll have the remaining six. The January stations didn’t go so well for me, I passed two and failed two. Altogether, we’re allowed to fail four stations out of ten. So, in May I can only fail a maximum of two stations of out six and that’s kiiiiind of stressing me out but, I’ll just have to priotise OSCE practice over revision. You win some you lose some.
Moving away from the academic side of things, I turned 20 in December. I am no longer a teen! I had anatomy class the day after my birthday and was nicely reminded by a friend that “it only goes downhill from here, Farah.”. Cheers, pal!
I’ve had a fair few ups and downs since September. The ups were very up and the downs were quite down. There was a period between mid-November-December where I felt extremely low. I started losing interest in what I was doing, I isolated myself from friends and started spending time alone, and it was rare to go through a day without feeling on the verge of tears. I reckon everybody has times when they feel like the walls are closing in on them and they’re not quite sure what to do or how to deal with it. However, I am out of that period and I’m feeling much better in myself, and in everything else really. Positivity and that 😉
Like I said before, the ups were very up! I’ve formed some amazing friendships so far this year and it makes me very grateful to know I’m surrounded by people who make me happy. People like that are important – keep them close! I’ve also tried out new food places (it’s always important to do this) and I’ve been to the theatre three times! I love the theatre but it’s usually so expensive. However, I managed to get nicely-priced tickets for three separate showings. I watched Blood Brothers in November, The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time in February, and The Woman in Black three days ago! Blood Brothers has got to be my favourite musical. Besides theatre-going and food-tasting, I also went back to the Peak District in January, to a place called Derwent Dam. It’s a beautiful place for walking. Unfortunately, we didn’t realise it was a 16 mile walk around the dam till we were about 9 miles in wondering where the car park was. It got quite scary towards the end of the walk because the sun had set and we still had no idea where the carpark was but that’s a post for another day.
Currently, I am burderned with a ten-page report that is due in this coming Friday. This particular report is about whether we’ll find a cure for HIV, which I actually find really interesting. I love researching the topic but it becomes that liiittle bit more annoying when a deadline is placed upon it. I sent off the first draft yesterday and I’m sure my tutor will have a lot to say about it. It was a shambles… that’s putting it nicely. She’ll give me some feedback on Tuesday and then I’ll spend a solid few days lacing it up and making it look all fancy nancy before submitting it and saying cya to the stress and hello to the Easter break. That’s the plan, anyway. Unfortunately, I’ve never been good at sticking to them 🙂
Till the next time, which will hopefully be within the next week!